Here’s an absolutely hypothetical example,
this is not about a real person and she does not sometimes have straight, and
sometimes wavy, red hair. We’ll call her J.
When Covid hit in March and it sunk in that it was here to stay, J.
decided it was the perfect time to try online dating. That’s what I like about J., she’s such a
deep thinker with lofty goals. Her
friends had been after her to get “back out there” and since the thought of
dating made her want to throw up, she thought online dating with the wall of
Covid around it would be safe and less scary. A way to move forward while standing still.
Poor deluded J., thankfully an actual person would not think this way. 😏
To say the beast that is online
dating is cruel with the ability to disembowel its’ victims might be
overstating it, but it’s not! Sometimes,
that is how it feels, or at least that’s how J. describes it. And now, after more than a few bad outcomes,
J. has met someone she would like to get to know but she finds herself halted
with the fear of Covid. Just when she was finally willing to go outside of her
deeply entrenched comfort zone there is a pandemic! Can’t a girl catch a break? Even hypothetically? Apparently not in 2020.
Even though logically J. knew she had
weighed the risks of getting to know Bachelor #17 and they were minimal, still the
fear of Covid put the kibosh on all plans to meet. Or did it? Overthinker J. searched and
searched her brain for the answer. The
more she searched for reasons not to meet up, the more her brain gave her because
that’s what search engines do. So, just
like we do when we can’t remember a specific name or place, she let it go so
the real answer could reveal itself. “Life doesn’t cause how we feel, it
reveals how we feel.” Carol Howe
Is Covid causing how J. feels, or
revealing how she feels? Is J. using
Covid as an excuse to not meet Bachelor #17?
Is the fear something other than what she is convincing herself it
is? Through meditation, letting go and
allowing the answer to come to her, J. realizes she is really using Covid as an
excuse to not feel vulnerable by opening herself up for rejection and
loss. Her original intention of using
Covid as a wall of safety has now become a barrier to living. J. knows she does not want to put her life on
hold until Covid is over. She also knows life is not going to knock on her door
without her first extending an invitation.
Yes, during a pandemic the invitation to life looks a lot different but it
can still be extended. Of course, J.’s story is just a hypothetical example of
how one could allow fear to cripple them, but it could happen. 😏
The pandemic has forced us all to
live differently but it’s still our job to always try and live our best life. How might you be putting your life on hold? Are you always saying, and thinking, “when the
pandemic is over and things are back to normal I’ll…...”? What feelings are coming up for you now? Is Covid causing how you feel, or revealing
how you feel?
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