Last week we talked about internal and external hunger and after our Friday meeting I experienced a powerful external trigger. My friend had just finished her first chemo for her stage 4 colon cancer and I was picking her up at the hospital to take her home to Napanee, so as you can imagine the "trigger" stage was set. Seeing someone you love start on that kind of journey, which let's face it, has no good outcome affects each of us differently. For me I get the "Well in the end what does it all matter so I might as well eat" feeling and was immediately thinking of fast food take out. After all, what does it really matter?
Fortunately, as I always do, I had snacks with me: 2 apples, my favourite coconut 4 SP protein bar and a thermos of coffee. A good thing too as I still had to go on to Kingston to make a return for my friend. Then I got lost, and then the return did not go well and then it was 6 pm and I was frustrated, sad, mad, tired and thoroughly pissed off....at Kingston and wonky Princess Street, at the store for it's stupid return policy, at F@#&ING cancer AND at all the people going through the Wendy's drive thru because I so badly wanted to join them. But I didn't. I didn't because I had just come from a meeting. I truly believe the meeting made the difference. It helped me to think about my goal and to say "It really does matter."
So I ate my protein bar and two apples, drank my coffee and went home.
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